Start all over

Ahhhh~ hello wonderful sanctuary blog where no1 really cares.

Recently, reality hasn't been nice to me

and to think i thought we had a mutual relationship

:(

and i do not wish to seek professional help

because i don't like authority

so i shall learn how to deal with my own problems

which are

1) being mean

(basically a bitch)

not exactly intentional

therefore shall work on it

cutting classes and myself

study more!!!!!

and i don't really know how to work the 2nd part out

cos it really does have its pros and cons

PROS

releases stress

makes me control my feelings

helps me lighten my gulity conscience

it's somewhat.....soothing? therapeutic? fun?

CONS

erm....its bad

it's ugly

everyone's telling me not to do it?

ugly

ugly

ugly

ugly

ugly

ugly

SCARS!!!!

and i know right now someones being sangry at me for cutting

so i wanna say sorry

also i've been hurting alot of ppl lately

and i don't really know why becoming more and more like my mum

and thats scary

so i apologise to all of you

and i'll try to change back to my old self

i even have a plan!!!

THE AWESOME NINA PLAN

step 1) avoid ppl i have not yet harmed and give excuse of having to study for exams

step 2) only do things that would make me happy

step 3) excluding overdosing and cutting

step 4) DO NOT let other ppls negativity affect thyself

step 5) throw away knife (erm.....this one can be optional i guess)

step 6) if i do still cut, tell someone i trust so that the person can reprimand you

step 7) don't tell mirabel step

8) don't tell gracine either step

8.5) or jayme step 8.75) or really, anyone i love too much that i can't bear to hurt

(NOT THAT I DON'T TRUST THEM, i just dun want to disturb them)

step 9) find someone that i trust and will not kill me if they found out im still cutting

step 10) pass O's step

11) find rich boyfriend step

12) marry rich boyfriend/fiance step

13) shopppppp step

14) fly to london to join nicole ang step

15) shoppppp in london step

16) fling with tom felton step

17) die happy

~the end~

:)

SEEE!!!!

WONDERFUL PLAN!!!!

escpecially step 16!!!

So people who i have hurt/have yet to hurt

i'm so terribly sorry

:(

i really do feel guilty

i even have the scars to prove

but just deal with me/ignore me till im through with the plan

because you're too much of a treasure to loose unless :)

you're some weird stranger reading this

maybe if we got to know each other a little better

perhaps.....

Milk Tea

THIS IS A ENTERTAINING DISTRACTION POST ABOVE THE STUPID BORING POST BELOW.

ISN'T THIS ADORABLE? I JUST LOVE 500 DAYS OF SUMMER :)

AND ZOOEY DESCHANEL :D

I DON'T KNOW WHY I SUDDENLY DECIDE TO WRITE IN PINK

BUT DECIDED TO DO SO BECAUSE I CAN

HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED IF MILK TEA WAS MORE OF

TEA WITH MILK

OR

TEA FLAVORED MILK

YOU NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE DID YOU >)

WELL, AFA IS THIS WEEKEND

I'M WORRIED THAT I'LL SCREW IT UP :(

BUT I LOOK LIKE THIS ANYWAY

I KNOW A BIT SCREWED LA

OH WELL

SO NOW THAT I'VE MADE THIS WONDERFUL POST

YOU'RE ENTERTAINED :)

BYE BYE

OFF YOU GO

SKIPPING MERRILY DOWN TO SOME OTHER BLOGSITE :D

Dancing Through Life

Im considering whether i should continue writing from where i left off or not care.....

ah forget it

future self, if you're reading this and your cursing why im too lazy to type out THEBEST/WORSTTIMEOFMYLIFE, i'll ask you take a look around you (probably some super messy study room like my current one). I rest my case.

anyway, i don't think you'll ever forget this year

2010

i thought it was just some normal year with normal stuff

obviously, as usual, im wrong

hmmm lets go through the stuff that changed...

1) my math sucks, and i hate math now. i remember last time (sec 1&2) i was so enthu in beating zhi yin...but now its like ~opens math textbook......dies~

2) i like ribbons now. i remember in sec1&2 i simply wore hair tie tingys, but now i grew a certain fondness for ribbons :P

3) i have somewhat fallen in love with anime. specifically, shoujo anime. i remember i used to hate anime in sec 1.... i had this theory that anime is an japanese animated version of porn. i still beleive in that, but i simply avoid those types and embraced change

4) i think i grew more emotional for gawdnoeswatreasons =_=

5) i think my voice broke too, i mean like, im pretty sure my singing was much more tolerable when i was younger

6) hmmm.....ever since sec 3, i grew more distant with sec 2/8 09' :( im starting to wonder, 5 years down the road, will they still remember me. i mean like its easy to say, of cos! we'll stay together no matter what! but if you think about it, if our only common topic are friends, teachers, school, etc etc...... what the hell are we going talk about in the future?

7) maybe a little more pervertic?

8) I FOUND OUT THAT PERVERTIC IS NOT A WORD!!!!

9) someone pointed out to me that i eat cheesecakes seductively-.-" ~glares~

10) I now know how it feels to love and be loved

11) Because along the way i fell in love with:

1. Kyoya Ootori


2. Hikaru Hitachiin


3. Kaoru Hitachiin


4. Mitsukuni Haninozuka (Honey Senpai)


5. Takashi Morinozuka (Mori Sepai)
   
6. Tamaki Suoh
   
7. Takumi Usui
   
8. Ryoga Hibiki (P-chan!!!!)
   
9. Ikuto Tsukiyomi
   
10. Utau Hoshina ( i know she's a girl -.- but she's a VERY PRETTY girl)
    
11. Nadeshiko Fujisaki/Nagihiko Fujisaki ( i don't care i like both)
    
12. Rima Mashiro (adorable much?)
    
13. Len Kagmine
    
14. PETER WHITE!!!!!
    SUPERCUTETOTHEMAX!!!!!!!
    
15. Ellliot March
    
16. Dee
    
17. Dum
    
18. Boris Airay
    
19. Vivaldi
    
20. Ace
    
21. Julius Monrey
    
22. Pierce Villiers
    
23. Joker
    
24. Koki Niwa (NOT JAPANESE ANIME. BUT REPRESENTING JAPAN IN TABLE TENNIS)
    
25. *********************** ( insert whoevers name. i just wanted to make it 25)

12) i just realised i fell in love with lots of anime characters and japanese related ppl e.g koki >.<>

14) I love Drama :D

15) i want to learn back ballet :/

welll im gonna stop here cos my brains kinda tired from all that thinking

but i guess because im seperated from 2/8 09' ppl, i came to realise new things about new/old friends

does that make sense?

its ok, i don't understand what im talking either

but i admit, i don't think any class will ever be able to match up how it felt to be 2/8

and every time i look up at the stars at night

i wish really hard i don't loose any friends on the way

whether from 2/8 09'....

drama.....

bowling....

3/6 10'......

their all my friends, each and every one of them special and precious to me

just like the stars in the night sky, their the ones that brighten tings up and gives me hope

i know i sound super chim/poetic/moronic? now, but i guess that's how i see it from my view

i should like call this corner "SUPER CHIM NINA CORNER"

has a ring to it :D

oh well, i should go off......you know "studies" and all....

BTW:

Did you know star wars is about the past whereas star trek is abou the future?

Evidence: you know at the beginning of star wars movies they always go "a long long time ago...."

~I learned this from Kimberly Lai

EMERGENCY much?

so dead.....

~fluffy ball rolls across screen~

revive my dead blog REVIVE!!!!

~splashes coke on computer screen~

fizz...fizz

IT WORKED!!!! I SPARKED IT BACK TO LIFE!!!!

~blacks out~

!!! eh?

whoops?

ahhhh call 911.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ab8GtuPdrUQ

oh....

~dials~

0118 999 881 999 119 725 3

Hello? Is this the emergency services?
Than which country am i speaking to?
hello? hello?

I FOUND JULIN'S HOUSE!!!!! MUAHAHAHA!!!!!......but not that im a stalker or anything....

29th March 2010

Finally found julin's house at long last!!!

MUA HAHAHA!!!

fine fine.......she actually lead me to it

apparently i forgot to bring my house keys that day so i was kinda locked out

than i found out julin was at the market looking for cucumber

so i went there and found her

having ample amount of time i just followed her IN A NON-STALKERISH WAY

somehow we ended up at some carpark that was near her house apparently

Don't you just love this picture ^^

later she lead me to this random block

went all the wayto 13th floor

walked down a couple levels and she went to a random door and opens it

"hey.....it's open"

and there i ws acting like a completete idiot ordering her to close back the door and not disturb the house

she still opens it and shouts into it "Anybody home?"

-_- so much for respecting your seniors

than later she plucked a chili from the plant of that house and started squashing it with some kind of pottery thing

oh wanna know the best part???

she threw her wallet in -.-

and than i started freaking out

but than i sarted getting suspicious when she didn't care and just normally took some long pole out of no where and pulled the wallet back

as it turns out

it was her house -.- ......

i feel somewhat....cheated

so julin did keep all my letters ^^

and she has PINK walls

it actually looked like a normal house

i dunno...

i guess i was kind of hoping like a sort of like cave thing cos you know vampires = bats

or maybe like a hill cos you know goats live in hills and stuff

oh well, at least now i know vampire goats whereabouts ~scribbles scribbles~ ^^

Marshmallow Drama Night! ^^

hmmm.....i still havn't blog bout many things

such as my outing wif julin, cheryl & nat

oh, and that retarded cooking lesson?

but i'll get round to it ^^

anyway i'll try to squeeze weeks of wat i randomly did into 1 post:

16th March 2010

Went out with Julin, cheryl & nat

but julin was like some other place so met cheryl & nat 1st

somehow ended up playing @ J8 arcade

when suppose to be meeting julin at AMK :x

than julin kept calling askin if we on our way and were like ya ya

~puts down phone~

Cheryl: Hey! Let's go buy plaster for blister

~after buying plasters~

Cheryl: Let's go buy shoes ^^

so like our 15 min became like longer than that :P

anyway, we managed to finally reach there

ate at ichiban

Chawamushi :3

and than they kept asking me to behave -.-

them of all people

talk about the pot calling the kettle black -_-

And they were even like

"do you need a fork nina?"

"Excuse me, can you bring a fork and spoon for HER"

I KNOW HOW TO USE THE CHOPSTICKS DAMMIT >.<

Then after that we went to buy tickets to watch "Being Human"

than we went down to walk around

for some reason, whenever they see a ribbon, they'll point at it and go

"Hey look nina! ribbon!"

i shouldn't have told them i like ribbons >.<

later we rushed down to buy stuff from fair price before rushing up

we still ended up late for th movie though

after the movie we went to take neoprint






you can probably tell, i decorated
this 1, in my defence, i ran out of time
so i anyhow scribbled >.< )

natalie had to go after that :(

than due to a certain craving

we went back to ichiban for more chawamushi

it was fun :)

well except that 1 part where we walked past this bra shop

and NIAP being them said (quite loudly too)

"Eh Nina! Don't get too pervertic ok!"

T_T

that was NOT fun

but i hope we can do this again some day ^^

you know, some where wih no bra shops -.-

23nd March 2010

Finally made julin her cardboard house & gave it to her

oh and....

HAPPY FREE CONE DAY!!! ^^

I knew about it since primary 6

but i was never be able to get the free cone

2007....
me: YAY!! it's free cone day ^^
friend: what do you mean? it was yesterday
me: -.-

2009....
me: YES!!! IT'S FINALLY 23 APRIL!!!! FREE CONE DAY!!!!
another friend: What do you mean? free cone day was 1 month ago
me: -_-

so i finally got the date right

so when school finished

me, marcella, samantha, celestine & marcella friend

rushed there

nah, the que wasn't that long.....



..... ^^

well.... at least it took less than 1/2 hour or somewhere near that

anyway i had this perfect plan to get me back to skool in time for bowling

but due to some miscommunication

i ended up being late

so i went to OCC straight while julin,cherly & nat helped me bring my stuff

thanks ah ^^

than when reached there every1 was like condemning me

they were all like

'Nina, where's MY ice cream"

"3 years of friendship and you didn't bring ME ice cream"

"fine lah nina! ditch the eam for ice cream"

-.-

to clear things up, it was 1 cone PER person

AND I DID NOT DITCH THE TEAM

i still came back what.....

26th March 2010

Drama night

• after school went to michelle's house with gracine
  


• go gym for i have no idea why (we ate fries at the same time, totally defeating purpose -.-)
  


• watched Animal Farm


• very nice ^^


• went home with julin
  


• bought marshmellow and gummies before taking bus

~the end~ :) wasn't that nice

well so much for trying to squeeze everything into a post

at lest i did 1 week

probably continue only after exams = /

Good Luck To All For Exams ^^

omg that's super cute

i swear CareBears just keep getting more and more cute each time

HOW CAN YOU RESIST ><

Dancing in the rain pwns singing hands down

The 21st of March is the official day of World Down Syndrome Day

and to show our support, our school participated in the DSA charity walk

even though im always desperate for cip points and stuff like that

i genuninely wanted to go

i don't really know how to explain it

but it somehow gives off a nice feeling and i felt good bout it

anyway, it was compulsory

so the day before i was freaking out cos i realised that if you did a poster, you get 30min-2hr of cip hours

and i forgot to do it, n i really wanted the hours (showing how desperate i am)

but.....

i only had A4 size paper

so i was like asking every1 around if they had art block

and just so it happens, julin had (i mean lik, she has art rite?)

so she tot it was a great idea to do the poster to

so she said she would paint the "IJ♥DSA"

and the next day when we take the train together i would design it

so for the rest of night i was:

• fiding nice things to decorate it
  








• doing those punch hole cutout design thing
  








• getting distracted
  

and i ended up sleeping at 5.15am T.T

but that can'tbe compared to julin

she stayed upfor 1/2 an hour just to paint the thing

and even though she was tired, she stayed up to do it anyway

and this is julin

and she loves sleeping

which is different from me cos im used to not sleeping

so that was quite sweet/admirable/awesome of her ^^

Random student: but we all stay up to do our homework and stuff too

yeah but this is different cos

homework is something you have to do

this poster/banner thing is not compulsory

we do it cos we want to

and she's sacrificing her 1/2 hr of sleep for this

which just goes to show how even the smallest sacrifice can mean so much

so ya, that was cool :)

so anyway, i ended up sleeping at like 5.15am

i was supppose to wake at 5.30

but i thought i might as well wake at 6 when i wake julin

so i did

and.....i ended up not being able to reach the mrt in time to meet julin >.<>

it was also perheaps due to th fact that my clock was15 mins slow so i thought i could take my time...

but it was mostly my fault

so i felt bad that i mde julin wait :(

so i told her to go without me 1st cos i was afraid she would be late

so my mum offered to drive me to skool

i still feel bad :(

so went to school ->bus ->temasek poly

than somehow julin & cheryl ended up next to shir, charmie, chloe, me, colette & xin hui (whom i LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! :D ~eyes suspiciously at homework~)

and we managed to complete the banner thing

which ended up looking like this

its really big cos, julin painted 1 letter for each art block

and even though it's quite last minute

it was still pretty good

i shall break it down for you since you probably can't see it from the picture




chloe n cheryl chipped in too ^^

chloe drew the anime n the hand thingy

but it was raining

so we waited for a while

but it continued so we went anyway

but we were suppose to wear raincoats

but i didn't anyway cos i gave mine to hui ting

1st we did the warm up

and it was fun cos it was like dancing n we got carried away

n we ended up doing adacadabra

hahaha

than we began walking

me n charmaine were singing to different songs all the way

well than we reached back

went to tempenes mall or however u spell that

went home wif shirlyn by cab

ate spaghetti

than mum brought us to some kind of expo for dunno wat reason

but got alot of business thing

but me n shir got boredso we went over to food fair instead

after tht went ion n boaders

saw lots of easter stuff

i thought that maybe i should buy chocolate eggs

because you know

everyone loves chocolate eggs ^^

after that went home

ended u sleeping on the floor ><

but overall, today was fun